Crushes

God, I hate them. Make it stop, please.
Yeah we've all been there. Whether it be in school, a workplace, or anywhere you visit frequently there's always someone there that you're very fond of. Whether it be checking them out secretly or thinking in the dark recesses of your mind saying "Damn, they fine."
Well, sometimes it turns into a crush, or you liking them even more, reaching a point where it's making you crazy.
I had that recently. There's this guy in my school that I sorta like (he's my friend too, we talk to each other and text occasionally) and I tried to ask him out but got rejected. But after that "friendzone" I sorta felt better, like I lifted like 30 pounds of burden off my chest. Of course, I'm still sorta upset but seriously, I never really asked a guy out before and it was bound to happen. But at least I got some experience now. And hey you never know, maybe in the future he'll like me back, I haven't know him for that long.
I really hate crushes, more or less the uncontrollable ones. Where you start to like or even crave someone. Your brain says "No, stop it" but your heart says "Yes, keep going on". It's annoying and painful. It probably has to do something with puberty. It frustrates me.
The point of this post was just to spew out my feelings I guess, but that's all that happened to me the past few weeks. If you have a crush or if you know someone has a crush on you go out and get it, because YOLO (and that it's also Valentine's day). But remember, Valentine's Day isn't just romantic, it's also for family and friendships (that will be in another post).

So, am I happy or sad after that? Well, certainly not happy, but I'm not totally depressed being rejected for the first time. But hey it's life, I'll have to get used to it.